weekend......

yeahh.. hujung minggu dtg lgii~~~ best2.. but den, belum kul 5.30 pun aku dah shoot balik umah dah. tak larat sgt.. berat gle kepala aku kat opis td.. trus minta MC half day.

walking inside my house, climb up the stairs and turn up my door knob.lonely.. turn on my pc, clicking winamp icon..shuffling for the first song...

Langit Tak mendengar
Jadi hidup telah memilih
Menurunkan aku ke bumi
Hari berganti dan berganti
Aku diam tak memahami

Mengapa hidup begitu sepi
Apakah hidup seperti ini
Mengapa kuslalu sendiri
Apakah hidupku tak berarti

Coba bertanya pada manusia
Tak ada jawabnya
Aku bertanya pada langit tua
Langit tak mendengar

langit tak mendengar- PeterPan
.........
(winamp pun pndi memerli ekk~~)

tonight i'll be heading to melaka. balik kampung..( should i say kampung or rumah? :P) my sis will register for UIA next monday(i'm so proud of her.. congrats sis...) so i 'll acompany my parents for the registration.

k la.. got to laid my head down for a rest..

tooddless

aku demam

ari ni aku lmbt lg smpi opis. but den, bukan aku sengaja. i'm totally not feeling well. luckily my brother woke me up. if not, memang hanyut ar smpi ke tengah hari. woke up with an heavy head, 'sroott srott' nose, arghh. thinking dat nothing to do at home, i force my self to drag my self into bathroom and get prepared to go to office.
guess what? i've received my first pay ceque.. (my second cheque in my whole life...) woohoo.. hehe.. but den tak tau when can i cash it to my account. so relief to get it at this respective time. i'm totally broken right now. dah dapat cek ni, lege la sikit. leh la belanja2 skit..


nothing much to do right now. cik azman pun tade kasi kerje2 lain lg. so dat, surfing time...hehe. when i'm refreshing my friendster list this morning, i saw someone viewing my page. haih.. i broke my promise to that person... not actually promise between us, tapi janji diri aku kat dia... tak tau la kalau dia tau ke tak wujudnye perjanjian ni.... but den,maybe things get clear to her. so dat maybe i myself over perasan.. =) i rather willing to 'wait' for a long time than being hurt time by time.haih.. if only God would let that ' someone' knows that what i feel 10 years ago, still remain deep inside me..even though my inside things telah di'butakan' just like dat.....bende dah lepas.. haihh...

laalaalaaa~~ layan jiwaaa... muahahahaha

adoilaa.. my headache really killing me. haih.. mcm nak minta off half day je rasanye..

heyy.. read thiss...(copied from Bernama.com --> http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v3/news_sports.php?id=186389&vo=87 )


Sports

Selangor Whip Melaka Telekom

KUALA LUMPUR, March 18 (Bernama) -- Hosts Selangor chalked up their third win in 12 matches and in style when they whipped Melaka Telekom 5-2 in a Super League match at the Bukit Jalil Mational Stadium here Friday night.

Selangor were on the warpath from the start and almost scored four seconds into the game but Melaka Telekom goalkeeper Khairul Izwan Jamaludin stood in the way.

Khairul Izwan turned out to be a very tough nut to crack, forcing the Red Giants to wait until the 38th minute for the first goal. K. Sanbagamaran slotted home the ball which had fallen invitingly at his feet in front of Melaka's goalmouth.

ehem2..hahaha...

by the way.. according to the plan to change my add, i've found one name.. www.extricateteritory.blogspot.com aku tak tukar lg.. tpi bile aku nak tukar aku bgtau..
maybe next monday. just take note je la.. kalau takleh login pki add lama, korang just try add ni . k..

toodless...


sroottt..srootttt....haihh..

Priceless...

top-up maxis = RM10
duit minyak kete = RM20
what i've been thru last night = PRICELESS....

how would u think this world can keep spinning around? after last night, i knew the answer.

dunno la, is it i'm too stupid that can be lied just like dat or both of them were too 'genius' to arrange the 'conspiration' . lie? both of them? conspiration? what the hell i'm talking about?what exactly that happening last night? hahahaha..

dulunye aku ni bukan seorang yang percaya sgt ngan cakap2 orang tua.. as an example, “One drop of indigo is all it takes to spoil an entire urn of milk.” how would one drop of indigo would turn milk into other colour.. but den, after what i've been thru last night changed everything. "Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya ke tanah jugak akhirnye" the thing is, the way that squirrell will drop down to the ground. is it by it self crawling down the tree and lay down to the ground safely, being shoted by someone and drooped down in a pity & innocent way or while 'proudly' hopping around and then slip away and fall down shamely. if u want to be squirrel, please dont be the last type of squirrel.

for sure all of u will mumbling.. "apa la si panjang ni ngarut niii.. tupaii laa apa laa.." hahaha.. apa yg korang kene buat, amik iktibar atas apa yg aku dah citer td. think about it.

at this time, kepala aku sakit gle.. berdenyut2 sesangat. really feel like want to go home and 'bumm..' into my bed. semalam tak cukup tido. kul 4 lebih baru tido.. haih..

bnyk lagi yang aku nak tulis actually. but den my headache at this moment really2 killing me. later k. :(
oh ya, about the changed of this blog add, any idea..? really2 stuck to get an idea..arghh

i'm hurts both inside and outside....

toddless

srottt..srott...

arghh... dari pg td idung aku ni berair jek.. for sure has yg kat sebelah aku ni tak selesa ngan ke'srottt'an aku ni.. sorry la ye..i can say that this is an early sindrom for me to get fever.. arghh.. woke up this morning with dilema.. should i or should not going to office. maybe asap2 dr lori n bas yg buat aku selsema ni.. haihh.. what a fragile me..

while spending my 'golden' time in a office wif surfing and reading others blog ( :P) i found something, which i thought its nice to read.. soo for not to be sel fish and stinggy, i'll paste for u too.. i really believe that it is part of god's greater plan.

His name was Fleming, and he was a poor Scottish farmer. One day,
while trying to make a living for his family, he heard a cry for help
coming from a nearby bog. He dropped his tools and ran to the bog.

There, mired to his waist in black muck, was a terrified boy,
screaming and struggling to free himself. Farmer Fleming saved the lad
from what could have been a slow and terrifying death.
The next day, a fancy carriage pulled up to the Scotsman's sparse
surroundings An elegantly dressed nobleman stepped out and introduced
himself as the father of the boy Farmer Fleming had saved.
"I want to repay you," said the nobleman. "You saved my son's life."
"No, I can't accept payment for what I did," the Scottish farmer
replied waving off the offer. At that moment, the farmer's own son came to
the door of the family hovel.

"Is that your son?" the nobleman asked.
"Yes," the farmer replied proudly.
"I'll make you a deal. Let me provide him with the level of education my
own son will enjoy. If the lad is anything like his father, he'll no doubt
grow to be a man we both will be proud of." And that he did.

Farmer Fleming's son attended the very best schools and in time,
graduated from St. Mary's Hospital Medical School in London, and went on
to become known throughout the world as the noted Sir Alexander Fleming,
the discoverer of Penicillin.

Years afterward, the same nobleman's son who was saved from the bog was
stricken with pneumonia.
What saved his life this time? Penicillin.
The name of the nobleman? Lord Randolph Churchill. His son's name?
Sir Winston Churchill.

nice, huh?

Someone once said: What goes around comes around.

Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Sing like nobody's listening.

May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May Allah fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

still srottt..srottt..really2 dont feel comfirtable right now.

toddless

ALERT!

hey, hey, hey, the new page..just want to make it nice and simple.although some of it i 'cedok' it from others, but den it really represent me.hehe.. one more things, i'm in a process to get a new name for this blog, any idea?
if u have any, feel free to let me know k.
toodless..

Monday Morning!!!!

ramai orang berpendapat hari isnin adalah hari 'malas' semalaysia.. betul ke? hoho tapi aku rasa ari senin la paling best (tak selalu laa.. ) tapi pagi ni betul2nye hari 'malas' tuk aku..bgn awal dah. mandi, semayang siap2 nak kuar opis awal dah. sampai opis pun dah abis =awal dah. tapi tade keje.. waaa.. cik azman ngan cik razani pun tade. soo.. tade la keje.. ( padahal bolehje buatweekly report.. :P) but den.. huhu.. tak tau.. tak semangat ar pg ni..

weekend aku baru2 ni.. full. 2 hari aku kuar.. tak balik umah.. bukan merempat ar.. tapi accompany acap to company his sister. this is the first time aku kuar town after 3 weeks duk kl ni. in a first place, time acap ajak ikut dia tu aku mcm malas nak pergi. wif economoney probs, and some other stuff, but den kalau aku duk umah ni kang. bukan ada nak buat apa2 pun. nnti duk sorang2 nnti mule la pikir yg bukan2 kang.. so, gagahkan jugak ikut dia. aku terpikir gak, kalau tade acap ajak tu.. tak bergerak la aku dari umah tu. become anak dara lagi la weekend ari tu. yelaa.. sape lagi yg nak ajak aku kuar.. sape lagi yg boleh bawak aku jenjalan. acap tu je la.. nak kuar sorang2 kang sesat plak nnti.

have a heavy window shopping, quite make me sick. macam2 nak dibeli. suar la, perfume la, kasut la.. haihh.. penin2.. but for sure aku akan beli hp ar. kalau boleh aku nak beli time 8th july nnti..*wink2*(hint ni.. hint) saje nak happykan diri aku time tu. sbb setakat ni takde plan apa2 lg tuk ari tu. acap pun maybe takde..so aku sorang2 la time tu.. takpe2.. dah biasa sgt dah.. haha. deep inside me, for sure laa (can say sangat sangat sangat sangat laa) berharap yg akan ada org ingt ari tu. buat surprise..nak dapat hadiah..nak jugak merasa kan.. (ngade gle.. muahaha) but den dah bnyk kali berharap, tak penah nye nak jadii.. so dat, malas dah nak pikir2..haha

sitting and spending this weekend wif bangchik and acap, bnyk bende yang aku belajar. they consult me wif alot of things. they such a good consulter (btul ke eja nye ni?) for me. for me both of them much2 better than me. in anything i can say..thanks u so much. aku tau yg diorang takdenye nak bukak blog aku ni, but den, kalau korang baca blog aku ni, aku nak ucapkan mekasih bebanyak.. glad that i've known u guys.. (jiwang tak sudah2... haihh)

hari ni genap seminggu. i hope the other party can see what i'm trying to do. not to torture u. not to make u sad, make u mad or anything. but den u have ur own world right now. the world which u yourself choose to live in. for sure u akan happy wif ur choises aite? at my side, nothing u have to worry about. i' m happy wif ur choises. i'm 110% bowed at ur decision. never argued or tak puas hati. the hurts, the sadnes, just let me myself cure it on my own way. i know its hard, but i'm very2 sure dat u'll get used to it. i know, the non-existance of me will not really affacted ur 'complete' life. just take a good care of urself and ur relationship k.. take care.. :)

if i knew...

If I knew it would be the last time,
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say " I love you ",
Instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another day
to say " I love you " and certainly there’s
another chance to say our "Anything I can do? "
But just in case I might be wrong
and today is all I get,
I like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

huhu.. jiwang session before jumping into working hours..

olaa..
here comes another friday..douhhh.. tak sabar nak tunggu weekend ni. takyah lagi kene bgn awal..huh..
skang ni aku sensorang je kat opis. has, shah, nazrun.. sume pegi umah kak..apa ek nama akak tu..hehe.. aku tak penah jumpe akak ni lagi.cuti bersalin. so i assume sampai petang la aku sangap sensorang kat opis ni. tapi td cik azman jumpe aku.. "ari ni u lunch ngan i ar.. saya banje.." wuuhuu.. mkn free..ahahah.. butden for sure rasa akward nye kalau aku makan berdua.. dahla jarang borak.. minta2 cik shahrul ikut la sekali ek.takdela aku mati kutu nnti.
A lot of things to tell actually. but den..takpela.. malas plak nak ingt crite2 2-3 hari lepas ni. letih.. fizikal n mental torture. exhausted.. really exhausted.. but, from now on, i prefer to be silent, pasif.. silent is a great killer for me..it cah heal u and in a same time, it hurts u alot. but the inside me have imune to all thats hurt. so just let me keep the 'hurts' alone. aku mengaku yang all this time aku tipu diri aku.. aku cakap aku happy, tapi actually aku sikit pun tak happy. aku cakap aku tak boring, padahal gile babi nye bored. aku cakap aku tak ingat, padahal every seconds it'll across my mind. aku ,aku dengan gah ngaku yang aku ni kuat, but den i'm such a fragile little child.
arghh.. i hate my self...
haih~~ but den this is life..
make a choice and dont look back..

to Gadis and her bf, CONGRATZ..
moge berbahagie.. :)

hari ni aku bgn awal. eventhough aku takleh tido semalam. aku ingt lagi yg aku still golek2 masa aku tgk hp aku and its show 6'oclock.

wearing black long sleeves POLO shirts wif black POLO pants and black shine BATA( malaysia boleh!!) shoes. standing up infront of the mirror... smart? elegant? maskulin( :P )? its up to u to judge me. people judge peole depends on what their seeing on that person. wif a big smile, i sweep my acces card. entering the office wif 'langkah kanan'. first person yg aku jumpe is makcik cleaner( makcik cleaner ni best. sbb setiap kali meeting, she will 'exclusively' make milo for me. aku sorang je dapat milo, even ada sepuloh VIP dlm bilik tu. org lain sume minum air nescafe.. muahaha) smiling to her and keep walking to my cubicle.turn on my Pc and straight to the pantry to make hot tea. (but wait,..hey, Has tak datang lg. at last, aku dapat juga sampai seblum dia..hehe) the smile in my face still remain nice and 'sweet'. am i happy? its up to all of u to judge me. if u see poeple smilling, for sure we'll assume that he/she in a happy mode. but den, do we all know what is under their face?

at this moment, my inner side is BROKE. totally broken..broke into not two pieces, three pieces, but thousand an uncountable pieces. thats what i meant by TOTALLY...haihh..

i'm sorry if korang tak suke apa yg aku tulis ni. but in this present time, my blog is my best friends. kesian korang2 yg asyik dengar citer sedih aku (u know who u are..).. its time aku rasa yang aku stop beban kan korang ngan citer2 tu. its time for me to have it on my own shoulder and list it by myself. totally by myself. thanks for being a good listener. this blog is just the only way that i can iterprate what i want to say.

ntahlah... i really2 want to get through my prob happily and freely. but den honestly i'm not that strong. and at this stage, i feel so lonely. i have no one... no body... what do i have is just myself. but hey, this is life right? if u are weak, stupid and 'lurus bendul', u'll be under the strong, brave, and 'licik'(feeling better using this words either than 'clever') type of people's feet. and honestly,i myslef is under their feet. untill when people want to take me as a granted? i dont know. hidup aku perlu diteruskan. susah senang, just let my self complain to myself. really2 thanks to people yg betul2 take care of me. but sorry to say, there are no body like that in this world to me( this conversation was not including my family...this is my social life.. peoples around me..) honestly and trusticity( ada ke term ni?) is no longer have their 'special privillage pass' to get through my heart. no body can be trust and believe. even believing myself is a hard things to do. where is my motivational strength? i dont know...where is my strong trusticity into my self? once again i dont know...sampai bile aku nak jadi mcm ni? kepala aku ni hnya mampu menggeleng tidak ketahuan. just let the faith to decide. just Allah knows how hurt my self right know. just me and HIM knows what actually happened..oh God, please.. guide me..

i'm trying harder to make people smile.. to make people happy wif their lifes.. but den why people still make me as a rubbish? ignoring my existing? forgetting all my effort? aku bukannya nak disanjung.. di puji.. di julang... tapi apa yang aku nak is simple.. respect me as a human being yg ada hati dan perasaan.. thats all.. aku pun nak hidup as a normal person..loving an being love.. but den,on top off all this, i took it in a positive side..

GOD WANT TO TEST ME...

tik...tok..tik...tokk... alahaii..lmbtnye nak tunggu kul 5.30 ni. after dat 2 days off..huh.. what a relief. nowadays, i know how to appriciate weekends.and furthernore, i've learnt how hard to find 'halal' money.so, kids out there..kesiankanla parents korang yg penat keje tu.. :P

at present time, aku tgh survey2 hp apa yg aku nak beli. anyone hav a good suggestion? penin pale aku pikirkan pasal hp ni.nokia? SE? LG (chocolat smart gle wehh..)adehhh..sian kat Gadis, lama dah aku pki hp dia ni. segan plak rasanye...

ermm..lapar pulak rasanye..k la.. want to go to pasar malam down there..

toddless..

olaaa..
see.. like i said yesterday, ari ni aku lambat lg.. almost 30 minutes late..muahaha.. 2 conservative times..haihh..kamon panjang, dicipline2..
but den, aku rasa tak berbaloi aku stay up mlm td. actually ngantuk gak sebenarnye, starting from outrages korean dramatic wins again togo, i put my self more comfortable in hope seing france (as u know, zidane, henry, vieira, thuram, and bla..bla.. bla.. should be interesting aite?) but den.. ceh.. nyesal. very disapointed game. neither france nor swiss, both played bored game. where is henry's 'sharp' ending? where are all the 'genius' zidane's skills? series nyesal aku tengok game tu. but the highlight for the morning is brazil vs swiss.
for sure the whole world is waiting for this mutual team (as said by many people) in action. i myself chosing this 'complete set' team will bring back the trophy once again. dari la keeper sampai ke striker, sume boleh cakap 5 stars player. but den, once again, what a dissapointing from the giants. haih.. agaknye semua skill2 star ni takleh kuar time first game kot. even this 'factory of skills' pun hampeh mlm td.

tu belum citer pasal 'keberatan' ronaldo ngan adriano. dua2 lari bawak perut je. no dangerous shoting from adriano at all. ronaldo adala sekali, tu pun 'tembak bulan' nye shooting. haih.. luckily, this macho boy, kaka' with brilliant left foot shoot a beautiful 30m range gol. haih..
takpe2..aku yakin brazil akan improve lepas ni.. cehh mcm shebby plak aku ni..
actually aku ada agenda lain sebenarnye. tu yg smpi 4-5 pagi aku stay up tu. waiting for a call actually. but den takde pun.haihh
soo pengajaran tuk ari ni, jgn tido lmbt..
toddless

olaaa...

pagi ni aku lewat masuk keje..25 minit gak la lewat. tapi masuk opis buat muke toye jek..budget2 tade org pasan ar. ahaks...

waoke up at 7.59am with my dizzling and swirling head..dragging my self to the bath room and have a 5 minutes of 'mandi kerbau' and den capai je mana2 baju yg tergantung..comot aku ari ni..ngan baju yg tak beriron..in a first place nak aje aku call has and den cakap aku tak larat gi ofis ari ni..but den, remembering yg ari ni all 'civils engineer'(engineer ar sgt... baru suruh buat beam 150 X 300 pun da salah.guling2 gak la cik wan gelakkan..ceit..) kat opis ni have to continues their mega projects, so dat aku gagahkan gak la gi keje.. mega tak mega sngt la keje nye.. buat model je pun..but den i'm really into it..yela.. kata kempunan nak jadi arkitek dulu. org tgn keras ar katakan.. tak pndi melukis.. soo lepas geram ar kire nye ni..at least i've learnt something.. dan ada gak la isi weekly report aku nnti..

berbalik citer aku bgn lmbt pg td.. here are the cronologies that most probably drift me into this situation..

1. whole weekends night spending time depan pc nengok series.. sampai pukul 5-6 pg br tido

2. Ahad malam isnin, tak dapat tido, layan gak la mexico vs iran..sampai 5 pagi.

3. lepas layan bola sampai 5 pagi, baru je terlelap dlm 5 minit, acap plak call. sutuh bukak sliding door..terus takleh tido. pak usin pun ada..dah terjaga, teus mandi gi keje ar..

4. mlm semalam budget nak tido awal, acap plak ajak pi beli wardrobe..eemmm stenderd ar kalau kuar ngan acap.. kul 12 br balik. ingtakan leh tido lepas balik dr IOI, tak dapat gak..terus install 2 biji almari n 2 biji rak.

5. setelah berkerah keringat sepanjang malam, lepas mandi sumpah niat aku nak tido, once again.. acap menjadi benteng penghalang mimpi2 indah ku malam itu, boleh dia ajak borak plak..dia boleh la stay up, dia cuti..ceh..soo kul 5 gak la aku tido semalam..

6. jiwa kacau..muahaha..

as a result, bgn kul 8, kepala weng...adoilaa..

and most probabbly this condition will still remain..coz.. for sure mlm ni kene stay up. brazil beb..nyesal tak tgk..ngantuk pun ngantuk ar..janjidapat tgk..muahaha,,

k la, err.. engineer kene kembali bertugas...haha ( budgtett~~..)

at this moment..i really2 miss someone.. but den..haih..

olaa..

guest what, i'm updating from the office of Succes Converge Sdn Bhd..muahahaha.. yeahh.. i'm no longer a student..(but just for 8 months ar :( ...) its have been 2 days since i'm starting my internship here..i'm lucky to have a good working environment, funny officemate, 'cute' big boss and not forgotten my hardworking and most dedication 'seniorita'.. Nurhaslina... she helps me a lot.. keep my working hour full wif something to read..if shes not around, tercangak2 jugak la aku kat opis ni..actually boleh je nak update blog ni on my first day.. but den.. quite segan actually..haha

yesterday have been very exhausted.. maybe exhausted on counting time.. wif no works to do. intens to help but seriesly..tak tau nak tolong apa. mayb its to early for me. has said.. project at putrajaya is growing faster. and in 2 months time, the project will be started. maybe at dat time, there are no more leisure time.very2 loking forward to that. i hopes there are many site visit.. 'jalan2 time'..and this morning i've heard some good news.. although maybe i'm not involve , but going to China is the most adorable thing to hear..hopefully dapat la ikut..haha..

hidup UEM!! (<--sorak dgn harapan jadila projek ke china tu..muahaha)

ermm..what else to say..laterla.. takde idea skang ni.. :P